So, it's 2008 and after a few weeks at home I am back in Spain. Christmas was a period spent seeing loved ones, consolidating relationships and just enjoying being back at home. Now I am back and have some work to do...oooh, do you hear my enthusiasm? I am not stressing though.
In some ways I am quite upset to be back. Well, sometimes you just want to say sod all that positive 'it will be the experience of a lifetime' stuff. It can actually be quite lonely here especially after a trip home and it will be sad to see many of the friends i've made leave in February to continue their erasmus elsewhere. There will of course be a select few, the cream of the crust who will stay and fun times will be had no doubt, especially as the weather warms.
For the moment, well, this work is a bit of an anoyance, I just want to go out and socialise!
I think one of the things about the year abroad is learning to put up with things. It's a different country and there is often the feeling at the back of my head of just waiting until it's over. I'll miss it when it's finished i'm sure and will take a lot away from the experience personally but for the moment one of the things that keeps me going is the prospect of 5 days in Brighton in February as well as visits to Madrid from home. It's the people I miss here - if they could all be transported to Madrid then it would be perfect! But being apart from them makes you realise how much they mean to you and on going back the experience is so much fun because you don't take people for granted - all you want to do is see them and enjoy their company and the shared pleasures that you have.
Talking with a friend yesterday, we discussed loneliness. For me it is the most unpleasant symptom of the year abroad. One can so easily feel far away from family and friends. It was what I most 'feared' about coming back after the time at home.
I am making it sound like I am really down to be back, i'm not, promise! It's fine. I am quite settled here and I know what the score is now. I have friends here and the imminent visits from Anne Sophie and Shamus mean I will be able to excuse myself from the mundane and explore more of Madrid...Something to look forward to. But for now, well back to the work. It's not all bad really. The book I am reading is nice and in French...la vie est belle
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mm yeh loneliness is the theme of the day (and of my first blog back here too!). get exactly what u have said! and yeh then its easy to sound depressed... which isn´t the case either. ah life! :o)
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